As a redhead and a Leo, sometimes my red hot temperament results in a red hot bottom.
It is not that I am a brat or that I am attention-seeking, it is just the natural result of my impulsive feminine nature. There are times I take action before I think of the consequences of my actions and when that happens I am fortunate to have a HOH (Head of Household) who cares enough about the outcome of my behavior that he will take me in hand and give me an old fashioned over the knee spanking. His temper is not as quick as mine so he gives me plenty of warnings with "the look" and with verbal reprimands in order to allow me to change my ways, and still there are times I don't heed the warning signs and it takes a firm hand to deliver the message during a sound spanking. When his hard hand lands on my bare bottom, it can really hurt and sometimes the soreness lasts for a few days, but the lesson learned has a far longer lasting effect.
I need his authority to guide me in a disciplinary way because, in all honesty, I lack the self-discipline I need to achieve the same results I do when I am motivated by consequences imposed by a loving dominant man. I don't crave the punishment but I do desire the outcome when I am punished. When I have done something wrong that I know will disappoint him because I am disappointed in myself, the emotional pain is overwhelming. Being spanked releases that emotional pain and allows me to reach a state of mind where I can express my repentance and be forgiven. Sometimes I cry tears of remorse but it is not the pain of the spanking alone that brings tears to my eyes, it is the relief that I have paid for my mistake and can learn from it to do better in the future. This helps me become the kind of person I can be proud of so he can take pride in being my life partner. He wants to protect me from the world but sometimes I can be my own worst enemy and it is good to be protected from my own misbehavior.
It is good to know that I am loved so much because the erotic love we feel towards each other builds when there is harmony in our relationship and in our lives. When some men get upset they withdraw into solitude but I don't have to wonder what I did wrong or how he feels about it because he spanks me instead of giving me his silent disapproval. In a DD (Domestic Discipline) relationship there are no grudges because anything that has the potential to come between us instead brings us closer together during a spanking.
It is not that I am a brat or that I am attention-seeking, it is just the natural result of my impulsive feminine nature. There are times I take action before I think of the consequences of my actions and when that happens I am fortunate to have a HOH (Head of Household) who cares enough about the outcome of my behavior that he will take me in hand and give me an old fashioned over the knee spanking. His temper is not as quick as mine so he gives me plenty of warnings with "the look" and with verbal reprimands in order to allow me to change my ways, and still there are times I don't heed the warning signs and it takes a firm hand to deliver the message during a sound spanking. When his hard hand lands on my bare bottom, it can really hurt and sometimes the soreness lasts for a few days, but the lesson learned has a far longer lasting effect.
I need his authority to guide me in a disciplinary way because, in all honesty, I lack the self-discipline I need to achieve the same results I do when I am motivated by consequences imposed by a loving dominant man. I don't crave the punishment but I do desire the outcome when I am punished. When I have done something wrong that I know will disappoint him because I am disappointed in myself, the emotional pain is overwhelming. Being spanked releases that emotional pain and allows me to reach a state of mind where I can express my repentance and be forgiven. Sometimes I cry tears of remorse but it is not the pain of the spanking alone that brings tears to my eyes, it is the relief that I have paid for my mistake and can learn from it to do better in the future. This helps me become the kind of person I can be proud of so he can take pride in being my life partner. He wants to protect me from the world but sometimes I can be my own worst enemy and it is good to be protected from my own misbehavior.
It is good to know that I am loved so much because the erotic love we feel towards each other builds when there is harmony in our relationship and in our lives. When some men get upset they withdraw into solitude but I don't have to wonder what I did wrong or how he feels about it because he spanks me instead of giving me his silent disapproval. In a DD (Domestic Discipline) relationship there are no grudges because anything that has the potential to come between us instead brings us closer together during a spanking.
I would be interested to find out more about your Favorite Demo Clips. Why did you pick them and what do they mean to you?
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"In a DD (Domestic Discipline) relationship there are no grudges because anything that has the potential to come between us instead brings us closer together during a spanking." Wow. This was a great statement. It brought everything together and explained it all in one thought.
ReplyDeleteI never did answer about the demo clips. My husband and I have a side business that allows him to use his talents to develop something profitable. In the video clips he plays the Dad and I play the daughter, Ember. These particular videos were fun to do because I was able to give him attitude during the spankings, LOL. I have not done many videos recently because we have found models to do videos but it is something I will probably return to out of necessity. He has suggested that I play his wife instead of his daughter but I prefer the role of the daughter because I am younger than him and I still have my natural hair color compared to his whitening hair that makes him appear much older. I really need to lose weight because I don't like how fat I look in the videos but when I can get past the self-critical response and watch with a more distant perspective I actually find the videos entertaining. I am more motivated to do videos when they sell well but as long as we have videos that are selling I would rather not have to look at my fat thighs that I keep well hidden to public view. Due to viewer demand, I may try being a spanker in the videos but I need some practice and coaching before I can pull it off. The videos we do are real with a basic scenerio that sets the scene and no other staging or scripting. What helps is that we use real life events and incorporate them into the videos so that when I am spanked in a video it is for a real offense, just not the exact situation as it is portrayed in the video. My husband suggested we take a video of my spanking last night but I convinced him that I need to lose weight first because I get too grossed out looking at my own naked backside. We have several models larger than me but their size does not bother me, it is only my own body fat that disgusts me. Then because I am closer to the camera during the spanking it makes me appear so much fatter than my husband that I am going to have to be much thinner than him to balance out the proportions on camera. Some of the videos go into a "training" concept that does not work for me but they are our best sellers so the idea seems to appeal to alot of people. I am not willing to do anything on camera that involves sexual acts because I am too modest (glimpses of private areas were unintentional on my part but may have been more deliberate when my husband was positioning me during spankings). The videos are done in a way that my identity is not revealed but still I am self-conscious about the way I look, even though viewers often complement me on my "spankable" bottom (the comments are on SpankingTube, which is where most of the demo clips can be viewed).
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